The dawn of a new day...

Today, I did something that I thought I'd never be able to do anytime soon. I called my ex.

We had a pretty friendly chat, though of course things will probably never be the same as before. But think we both handled it pretty well. I thought it would take me far longer to get to where I am now. Just yesterday, I was at such an emotional low, just because of something I came across/saw... which came as a sudden blow, just when I thought I was really starting to get over it.

But then today, I had a revelation... that all is not lost. Not that I am harbouring any hopes of us getting back together again (as one of my friends insisted I was doing!), but just that I realised that the only person preventing myself from moving on... is me. I was the only one who was holding on to the past, and looking for answers that have already been given (but I had refused to see or accept).

It's not good to keep analysing the past because those are things that cannot be changed. We can only learn from it, and if there are mistakes made, make sure that they are not made again. There's no point worrying about the future, because you never can predict what is going to happen... not even in the next minute, hour or day. So why worry?

As my little 8 yr-old cousin (and the yoga teacher) said: "Do not dwell in the past... Do not worry about the future... Live in the present".

And that is something we should always remember. :)

I also have another friend to thank, who really pushed me to where I am now. He told me that I deserved to be happy, and that I was not trying hard enough to move on. He said that I was a loser for being like this, and he didn't want to hang out with losers. Cruel it may seem then, but it needed to be said... coz I was just pushing myself further down the spiral, and only I can get myself out. So, thanks... and I'm glad to let you know, you are definitely not in the company of any loser. :)